I ended up going upstairs and getting away from my family. I am just getting so angry. It has been building over the last week. My oldest son has trouble focusing and I am having a hard time going over the same stuff every single day to get him settled. He ends up crying every day and homework that is supposed to take 20 minutes takes several hours. It doesn't matter how much he has. If he has two pages of math, it takes several hours. If he has two pages of math and four pages of reading comp, it takes several hours because of all the time to settle him down.

He is in therapy so that he can learn skills to calm down. his T shares the exercises with me so that we can use them at home.
He is just getting worse, and I am big time TRIGGERED today because of it.

I am hiding in my bedroom and told my husband that my day is over and he can take care of the kids for the rest of the day. We don't have a school break until March, so there is no break in sight for the next several weeks.

If I were to get very sick or very hurt right now, I would welcome it as a release from all this anger and irritability I am feeling. I don't have the guts to do it myself, but I kind of wish I did.