Hey Silver, I would guess your dad will be sad but then understand. You deserve to be treated well. You do know that there are loads of us in the U.S. who would love to have you come stay and teach us all of your disgusting, oh no, I meant different food habits. Just kidding. Can you make a god rice pudding? Okay, come on over, I will be waiting. it will be okay. Besides, look at all of the different people you have met here, all different walks right. Choose one and experiment and move on. Depression is a life-long adventure I am told. Please be well. I personally want to go see faver and Eski lover cause it's so different then where I live. Haven't ridden a horse in years but here goes!