ooh. my old-t didn't believe me. i had the suspicion that he didn't and i called him on it and he truthfully told me he didn't believe me. but he was a twat. i also told a uni psychologist last year and he said he had "no reason" to believe me. austin-t called him some harsher terms too .

i think the "reason" comment is a useful one though - you can look at what your Ts reasons are for believing you, and for not believing you. with old-T, he provided a lot of forensic services, so i think his level of belief was set at a high standard e.g., i told him that a scar i have is in a different place to where it should have been based on my recollections; and all these little inaccuracies built up to him not believing me. but like stumpy said, you're not asking your T to certify the 100% accuracy of your memories, just the general fact that something happened.

with the uni-psych, his reason for not believing me was that if he did believe me he had to write a report to help me get some study concessions and temp accomodation. i dont know what his problem was, maybe if i had gone in there crying and screaming it might have been different. austin-t knows who he is and put in a complaint to uni services though.

sorry this is long. i guess my point is that if you find it hard to believe that T trusts you, then you should ask yourself what her reasons are for not believing you. austin-t and pdoc both believe me. i don't know why they believe me, but i know they don't have an agenda to disbelieve me either.

because i was told to keep quiet with the threat that no one would believe me if i told, i find it very difficult to believe it when people do actually listen and trust me. and then if something feels funny in the relationship, i bring up a host of reasons to do with disclosing the trauma - they don't believe me, or they do believe me and now they think i'm disgusting etc. it's something i have to work to get free of.

i hope your T calls you back soon, sweetie .