The other day, I got bad news in the mail which infuriated me. Angry is an understatement really. I had intense emotions, wanting to physically hurt the insurance company employees (in charge of the deal). A thrilling and tempting thought.

I often use physical exercise as an emotional release in situations like these. However, I quickly turn the thought of hurting others into the reality of hurting myself through working out too hard or in dangerous situations, that kind of thing.

This time, I sexually attacked my boyfriend. No hurting there ~ I just put my energy into expressing passion. It was seriously wonderful for both my boyfriend and myself. I thought that my handling of the emotions was healthy.

My T, however, wasn't real thrilled with the way I handled my fury, to get through the moment. Like it was unhealthy? I explained that I didn't use any hurt or sadism. I simply put my mind and energy into sex. What's wrong with that? I don't understand. It's certainly better than going with my impulse (to beat the ^%^% out of someone or myself), right??? Am I missing something?