You ARE allowed to hate it there, as much as you wanted to be away from your mother..

Could you respond to a roommate wanted ad, the rent would be less with a roommate, and the roommate could be IRL support...

Or if you could get into the 'system,,' and start out in a group home then advance until you have your own apartment?

Or just move?

What about joining a support group for IRL support?

A church?