Its so funny, but I dont feel brave at all. I get that this is a brave thing to do. I feel like I have reached a point where I can face it, but I am also up against a wall. I feel forced to face the past. Its as if I am in denial of my fear! What exactly is it to be brave? I love that you said I was brave. I wish I felt worthy of the word.

Sannah- grieving the past? Hmmm....I dont know if its grief I feel. I feel angry at what happened and why it happened. And regret. Sigh.