Thanks, Tree. I've had a few conversations about this stuff with T because from the very beginning I've felt like I was too high-maintenance, and he has always responded like your T did - by reassuring me that if it ever felt like too much, he would tell me right away. He has never told me that I've crossed the line, so I guess I haven't. I still worry about it so much, though! It's exactly like you said - I wonder if he rolls his eyes when he listens to my messages...

Anyway, I ended up breaking down and leaving him a voicemail a few minutes ago. It was the most awkward message EVER - I basically said, "Yikes, I'm sorry I called you, I just couldn't stop myself, I'll stop taking over your life soon I hope, this is just an awful time for me, I'm feeling really bad, I don't even know what else to say, calling was a bad idea, I'm sorry, bye." Not my finest moment...we'll see if he calls back.