Silver, I responded ealier without seeing the whole thread. I am sorry. For starters, depression is a physical illness. Also, you are at an independent age and can do what you need to care for your self. My Dear friend Jane taught me that higher education need not happen in the society routine but at our own rate as we were ready to learn and felt dtrong in our selves. Remember her? She just came to me to tell you this. Amazing huh, her own son did a lot of ski bum stuff before he was ready for school at what, 30? Be well my dear, I hold you tight.