((((((((((((((deli)))))))))))))

it's going to be okay deli. i know it doesn't feel like it at all right now but you can do this. remember how you thought your parents would basically disown you for even telling them you were moving out? well, they haven't. of course they don't like the idea but they will adjust to it. i know you're scared but it isn't going to be like what your fear is telling you right now. maybe you can feel the fear and do it anyway. i like imp's suggestion of making the place your own a little at a time. you could just go over there to clean or something or take a few things and get away from family for a bit, even spend the night to get used to it. why don't you put in a call to pdoc? texting doesn't seem like it's always the best way to get in touch.