((((((((rainbow)))))))) you have done such a great job thru all this! i totally get your discomfort with the emdr T. the T you picked sounds so caring. yes, you'll have to tell us more about the IFS once you try it. when i finally get the courage up to go back to my T i'm going to tell her i'd like to do more of the inner child work. it really was some of the most helpful sessions i had. congrats rainbow!