thank you impy, thank you bloom.

it's midnight here and i only just got home from shopping. i'm exhausted but i'm too scared to sleep. i think i might tell my parents i'm sleeping over at the new place on the weekend - too tired to come back home etc. i really am, too, it took an hour to get back here.

bloom - my mother hasn't spoken to me since i told her, really. my sister wants to move into my room but dad said no, and apparently this is my fault so no one apart from dad is talking to me right now. dad has been amazing during the day time, but today he started letting that slip. of course he is a different person in the night but that's because he doesn't want to let me go. i am being shut off from my family, and the only person left is dad. i'm sad because he is the one who is doing stuff at night but he is also the only person i have left and the only person who really loved me anyway. so it's not really a case of me predicting the worst and it not happening, because this is a different kind of worst and it still aint great.