Tay,

I can empathise with you. My t is gone also. She's in another country right now! I couldn't have my session this week, and she won't be back for another week. She never offers to let me call her on vacation, so i think it's awesome that your t does. She must really care about you alot!

I understand also about the little part of you being scared to be alone. If i had to guess, i think our t's would advise you to recognize that hurt, scared part of yourself and do something to soothe her.

When my t is away, i tend to keep myself very, very busy in an effort not to acknowledge the feelings of separation and missing her. It's too painful. I know she would want me to acknowledge the feelings and sit with them, but i don't want to hurt! At least you are letting yourself feel your honest feelings, and that's good.

Don't feel bad about calling her if you need to.