Ok. Its sorted out now. Pdoc said that she prefers to work with people with the least amount of medication possible. She said she wouldn't be doing her job if she didn't prescribe what she thought would help. She said she sorry she didn't discuss it more so i understood. She said that 400mg is a therapeutic dose but its actually a low dose compared to other doses of the same drug. Pdoc promised that she wasn't trying to zombify me. Which is a comfort to know that my well being is looked after. So as always crystal is overreacting. and i think i do actually trust pdoc but its a different kind of trust and its a process.