((((Billi))))

Thank you for posting. I think you are doing a great job opening up and taking a chance to reach out. You are in the right place and there are many here that know what you are saying. I am one of those people. Being abuse by a woman is hard to talk about. Maybe it is because we are women or maybe it is because women are suppose to be care takers. Especially when they are mothers or aunts, etc. For me she was suppose to love me and care about me yet it was not that way.

Your feelings are real and I validate how you feel. I know I felt betrayed and my trust of women has taken a long time to feel and even still there are times when I am unsure. When trust is broken it takes a long time to get it back as it should. Trusting someone right away is a way to get hurt again. Taking your time is important, not just for those of us who have been abused but for everyone. But for those of us who have had that trust broken it is smart to take our time and to be cautious.

Take one day at a time, one minute at a time, even one second at a time if that is the only way you can take it. Many times I can only take one second at a time but that is okay. You are okay and you are important. What you feel is imporatant. Just keep reaching out as you can and please keep us posted about how you are doing. I know it is hard so just do the best you can.

Thank you for posting and know that we hear you, we validate how you feel, and we care and are here for you. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps