Don't be too hard on yourself ((A Long Ways)). It's very tough in the job market right now - what kind of work are you looking for? I saw one guy on the news and he put on his application, that he would work for free for a week - he got alot of offers and offers to stay at the job.

I know what you're saying about being nice and feeling stepped on. I think you can still be nice, but just learn to be assertive. I was very naive when I was younger, but as I got older, I learned how to stick up for myself respectfully. At the end of the day you need to look at yourself in the mirror and I don't think being nasty will benefit anyone in the end. Have you thought about volunteering for something you feel passioante about - this way you would meet others who have the same in common as you. I hope things improve for you soon.