you need to not be so hard on yourself... therapy is so difficult. it is when it is difficult that you are making progress. if it was easy, none of us would ever get better, ever! so just know that even when you feel like you are moving backwards, just showing up and trying is a sign that you are moving forward.

i know what it feels like to have those tough sessions. especially ones that make you feel guilty afterwards for taking out your embarrassment or anger on your T. trust me, they are trained and they've got enough experience to know that you are releasing onto them... you aren't mad at him, you are just frustrated by the work. he knows that, he has too.. so don't feel guilty!