No, that's not quite what I said. We look at trauma in relation to how it affects my thinking and living today. We just don't beat me about the head and shoulders with it. He chooses not to retraumitize me with old traumas. Does that make sense? We've looked at what happened to me in detail, but only once in detail. Now, when we look at my past, it is in more of a broad sense. We both know WHAT happened, now it is about what beliefs about myself did I take out of those experiences. That in itself is very painful. I've come to discover that it isn't so much WHAT happened to me that hurts so much; it is the thinking that I took out of those traumas that continue to haunt me. Nothing superficial about that. It's deep, hard work.
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