I am starting to think I am untreatable.
Please don't feel discouraged (((BNLsMOM)).
I'm glad you recognise they're just annoying thoughts and you don't want to act on them. The link I was going to give was, a crisis link for people who are very down or suicidal. I don't think you re are suicidal - so good to know that. The key to these intrusive thoughts is the 'recognition' they are 'just thoughts' - harmless - nasty thoughts. It's kind like having little evil person on your shoulder that says nasty things, when we're feeling vulnerable. When you realize these are really harmless, this might calm them down. You might also need a medication adjustment. If you ever do need the link please PM me - I don't think you need it now. Please take good care of yourself.