To eventually be able to get through them? I know I've said it before, but sometimes the only way out is through. And I know you've said it before, but feelings are information. I know they feel unmanageably big sometimes, but...I really think you're doing the right thing by moving forward, at your own pace of course.

I was just reading back through some things I wrote about my therapy quite a while back. It was shocking what a different headspace I was in then. And sad too, so much hurt there. The difficultness of the sessions, the ruptures, the heightened emotional responses -- the whole works. But I do think by dealing with the hurt, by returning to it and processing it over and over until I felt "full" of that, it helped me be able to move through those things. Not to say those feelings will never surface again, but on the whole, everything is so much more calm now. It's like I played out what I needed to, learned from it, and now have more insight when I feel things -- the feelings don't overtake me. I don't know if this is helpful at all, but I just get the impression that you're doing some of that earlier work, having to dig in and work through some exceptionally difficult stuff. Of course it's triggering and uncomfortable. But maybe by doing this, by processing it, it will take some of the power away and help it not feel so intense in the future?