so i have a giant bag of meds now.. lexapro, clonazepam, buspirone and i am starting a higher dose of trazodone tonight.

i'm starting to feel better. i mean... it's 8 pills a day, but i'm starting to go grocery shopping again and although i'm not sleeping, i just feel somewhat better.

the counseling was a major fail and i will never go back to that lady ever again even though my doc recommends therapy.

hopefully this weekend or next i find out, thanks to his cousin, what's going on with my ex boyfriend. i saved ativan for it just in case it doesn't go well.