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I'm glad you have an appt with T tomorrow. Have you discussed this with him, I mean the part that you need T more than once a month and you don't feel like you're able to make progress? I agree that once a month is not ideal when you're not stable. There have been times in the past where I'd go 3-6 weeks between sessions but it was never during a time when I was at least mostly stable. If you're not able to go to a neighboring town, maybe you could try to find someone online to work with you. Or maybe your T could do phone sessions... even just a quick 10 minute check-in once a week or something like that. You don't know unless you ask I guess. It's hard because I don't know what your exact situation is, of course, but i hope you're able to talk to T tomorrow and figure some stuff out. You need services more than you're being able to get them. Hang in there... you'll figure something out... think positive. Until then I'll send you positive thoughts!!! Stay safe! Keep us updated with what T says if you talk to him.