Hmmmm....that does work for me. In that case, it is courage. And we are all courageous here. I have a lot of fear. I am afraid of what I do not know, what will happen later on after doing all these things I need to do. But I am doing my best to trust, be hopeful and move forward. And be gentle and accepting of where I am in the moment. This stuff is hard.

I am taking a break. I am telling myself its not a "denial" break. I just need/want to focus on other things for the rest of the week. It really felt like it was all making me depressed and making my head spin.