thank you, crystal - i so relate to what you said about wanting nice dad all the time. nice dad is the best dad in the world .

re: appt. pdoc double booked me again. . i waited for an hour and finally left. i took time off work for this appt, and i get paid by the hour so i just lost a lot of money - my whole morning gone. pdoc just sent a txt saying sorry and that he could fit me mon or tues but i said don't worry i'm working next week and i've already taken time off today so i can't again.

i'll be ok because i haven't needed anyone's help before i met pdoc so i certainly don't need his now. i love him so much but he treats me like **** with this appointment thing, and i'm seriously over it. i'm not on meds now so i think i'll just stop seeing him altogether, because if he isn't available when he says he'll be then i'm just wasting my time, and also getting hurt.

did all my crying on the bus on the way to work and now i'm ok and i'll just move on.