Thank you....

Actually, I prefer my alone time....but I know it's not good for me. How strange is that? I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to be with anyone. I get excited when I know that I will be alone for a couple days - as much as I love my little girl - but it gives me the time to dwell in unpleasantness which makes me feel awful. I certainly could choose to use that time to live it up, but I don't want to. I feel too low with no energy whatsover. That's the strange thing about depression, I guess. *sigh*

My T responded to my e-mail and said the most caring things....

He said that if I were to miss out on the life I have ahead, he would be tremendously remorseful. He said I am a wonderful person with tremendous potential to do what he believes are some very powerful things in life...That I have some gifts. He said that he cares about me and needs me to keep fighting with him...and as alone as I feel, to know that there is somebody there thinking about me and pulling for me.