Wow..tree 'shame is the eyes turned inward"... I get that. Thank you. I am always thinking that my actions are abnormal in some way and that people SEE in me the me I see and that one isn't very good.

I'm dealing with guilt and shame as well. Last session my T choice to lead me a bit...right into discussing my relationship with H. VERY uncomfortable session, had a major dip afterwards but..now a week later I'm seeing it as a much needed session. IDK...I'm one who is also resistant to being directed in therapy, but sometimes its nice to just try and follow for a while. Unfortunately, after my session my T gave me a homework assignment. I'm still struggling with the shame and guilt that comes from continually questioning if I was the predator or prey. So my T asked me to bring a list of all of the people I think I hurt over the years. She suggested that we review it and once and for all determine which I was. IDK if I'm going to be able to confront all that next week.