This could be pretty triggering . . .




One of the things I told my t today was how naive I was growing up. But a boy in 3rd grade came up behind me and play acted a sexual act, and I knew what he was doing. In 2nd grade some older boys were chasing me, and I "knew" what they would do to me if they caught me. I didn't have the words or understanding of it, but I had already been there. But already at that time, I wasn't aware of what had happened to me at a younger age. Does that make sense? From a very early age, I had a fear that it would happen to me, but I didn't realize that it had already happened to me. (I feel like I'm talking in circles.)

I took out of my early abuse the belief that I was completely different from everyone else. I've spent my life feeling different and damaged and in danger. Time to get past that.