I am not going to post anything on here that probably wouldn't be allowed, my wish is to simply get some input on this:

I have had a reoccurring dream since I was about 4 years old. I was raised in a very strict family concerning sexual subjects and was a "late bloomer" knowing about the whole concept.

I am very emotionally tied to this dream and it bothers me, as I should not have known ANYTHING remotely like what I started dreaming about so young. I have a history of "suppressing" difficult memories.

What do you think the chances are that I was possibly sexually abused? Are there any methods available to "uncover" hidden memories?

I've been doing that a lot lately, hiding memories. Maybe I got to a point where my brain couldn't hold any more traumatizing experiences. My husband is the one who caught onto it, really. He brought up the man who raped me years ago and it's like I had completed forgotten he had ever even been attracted to me.

I don't understand this and it's bothering me. Any thoughts? Please don't be harsh, I am very sensitive about this subject as I have had multiple bad experiences in this department.