I'm glad you and T are repairing after a rupture, and I'm glad you felt safe there, googley. That's so important. You ARE safe there.

I can relate to the fears of being too screwed up for T, but I doubt that's the case. My T spent a lot of time in the beginning telling me I'm not as screwed up as I think I am.
These people (Ts) see so much in their careers, I don't think a lot surprises them.