I did not think anything could help me but your post did a little. I actually feel ashamed about just coming on here and ranting. The depressed part of me also thinks that since I am responding that people on here will see that I responded and that I will not get anymore support. I think I have finally gone over the edge because Murphy's Law seems pretty consistent today. I feel like I want to isolate until I get my meds and my bed. I feel mean and angry and selfish. Oh I do not know. Everything seems so out of control.