dealt with flashback last night. I think i fixed it for this night - wall was devoid of pictures; never a good thing for me. There still needs to be more up there, but I got the 2 main large areas with big collage posters I made. T says i don't HAVE to cover up the wall - that I get to choose this time. I feel like she doesn't get it. I DO have to cover up the wall. Takes me right back to being 10.

Other than that, I am struggling with the place. It feels dumpy - everything broken, millers and fruit flies here when i moved in, smells.... dealing with how i percieve things, and "utilizing my problem solving skills" that T talks about often. Trying to get myself to do yoga often. Haven't been brave enough to find a manager to fix the issues I already submitted in paper on the 2nd.

A former T - now more like my adopted aunt - is coming to visit me tomorrow =) mostly looking forward to it, tho i know I always clam up around her. Maybe with her in tow, I can do some of the things I am too chicken to do =)

thanks y'all