I do things and say things that I know they will put me in trouble and I still do it!
It's like Mr. Hide and Mr. Jakie! It's some monsters inside me....I hate that....
I added Kevin into my facebook and he added me back, but I can't even read his wall....It made me so upset and I emailed him back right away that wow...I can't even see your wall? you put privacy on me...OMG!" and now I feel bad about it....I know other friends say that they couldn't see his wall and he told me that he is not active on FB....why should I say something to make things bad? I don't know how he will react to it? and why should I be afraid of his reactions? what are all these feelings? again? feeling of losing him? or do I try to be so perfect and that is not possible?
Also, last night my dance teacher asked me if I can invite some of my girlfriends to the party, and right away I told her, "you should ask Aaron....he knows a lot of girl...no matter why he's alone!"
OMG....now I feel so ashamed...It's none of my business that he knows lots of woman and whatever he wants to do...although, he hurt me so much....but it's his life and I'm out of it....I don't know why I can't stop myself for being so impulsive!
This is really sad