PS what you just told us, you need to write down and give it to your pdoc. I do that - I don't have the courage to say somethings that need said and I forget to tell him things that I need to discuss - so I write it all down in a note book I keep in just for this purpose. I'm lucky that my pdoc tells me to call anytime I feel the need and he takes the time to talk to me and makes an appointment for the the following day when I'm really in a bad way.

Please post or PM me anytime - we are all here to help one another and we are here for you!! Maybe you need to see your pdoc on a weekly basis or at least see if he can give you an "over the phone session" once a week... You may feel braver and be able to disscuss things with him that you couldn't do when sitting in front of him. Believe me, I understand how you feel - thus the notebook.

Please keep posting and do check to see if there is a local support group close by that you could attend. Maybe your pdoc could check into that for you or check you local hospital and or church.

God Bless You