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Old Feb 12, 2010, 02:26 PM
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I feel terribly on edge at the moment. It comes in phases. Literally I feel calm one moment and all over the place the next. I know I'm having a few problems at home with the landlord, bills and other stuff and it does indeed feel like I walking on eggshells. I'm staying at home alot, I've been getting more and more agoraphobic because the moment I go out and bump into someone, my day is ruined, I act stupid and they look uncomfortable and try to avoid me in future, thats my social anxiety. Everything seems so unreal, like a dream or something, especially when I go out. At least no harm can come to me in the comfort of my own home. But now that is being threatened, a messy woman is due to be moving in and her fiancee will be over all the time, I don't like him, he has little repect for other people's home and flicks his cigerette butts and ash anywhere. It sounds rediculous I know but I can't cope with someone like that messing up my little bit of security. I was out n about today and I was having some sort of intrusive thoughts and felt like my brain was going to explode. My cocky ex came over too and couldn't stop bragging about himself, he assumed and said that I wouldn't know what he is talking about with regards to his mathematical intelligence. I swear my moods are getting all erratic again, aaarrgghh!!!
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