You have a great gift for loving. Even though it must have royally pissed you off (asit would have me) the doctors were smply trying to head off a nightmare scenario for themselves, and for you. I had a nasty mixed episode postpartum where I would lay my boy in his crib, go three feet into the hall and slam my fists into the wall. I wish they had taken me as seriously as they did you. I am very glad that you have this loving gift, and that loving man, because I suspect these two things will help you heal, though it might take a long time. Huggs.
I hope they catch that man who hurt you. enough said.