Kiya, I know exactly what you mean. Being on your own can bring such mixed feelings. It can be scary, and sometimes the terror you know is preferable to the unknown.

There will be good days and bad; smooth nights and rough ones. Keep at it, and in a bit of time, this place will begin to feel like home. After you've come to it for a few weeks, put groceries away a few times...it will start to feel routine. Like you belong.

You're doing so good, Kiya. It's completely normal to be feeling mixed up and even unhappy about this.