You are not stupid! You are like the rest of us -an extraordinary individual who is surviving in spite of the complicated life you are leading. Sleeping is not a weakness, a loss of control. It is just a necessity of life, a way for our bodies to regroup and refresh. Without sleep your immune system can't fight off illnesses. But do be careful about self-medicating so you don't mix drugs that don't need to be mixed. I fight with sleep both ways. When things are really bad, all I want to do is sleep and at times can sleep a lot. Then I have times like last night when I have to get back up and get on the computer or something because I can't just lie there anymore. Even though my meds make me have really bad dreams, I find sleep is a way to get away from the struggle for a while. Let us know how things turn out. Hope you get some rest.