Shirley,

You have always offered support here to so many. Right now you need support and we are here to give it to you. Please dont leave the boards.

I can feel and desperation in your writing when it comes to your ex. How helpless you feel against him. When you have been abused either emotionally, verbally or physically for a long time it is hard to break to cycle of giving in to the abuser for the sake of keeping your own sanity. Many, many years I put up with that and it takes years to break that habit. Even now sometimes when my current hubby makes a sudden move, I will flinch because I was used to that from my ex. It has been over 11 years since I was even with him. I just think that the scars stick with us. Just stay strong. Trust yourself. Journaling is good. Start that and I would even tape a conversation here and there as well.

Please keep coming here for support. We are here for you. Take care hun.


Hugs,


Jen