I am so sorry your visit didn't go well. I had so hoped it would be very productive and you would be so much more at peace. I don't know how long you stay on a med before giving up on it but I know that when I started the first phase of my cocktail (that my sister says could kill an elephant) it was several weeks before I stopped feeling so zoned out. Eventually that did get better and I started seeing an improvement in my anxiety and depression. I hope you find the help you need and deserve.