i do feel like he is trying to protect me in his own way. i think he thinks i'll kill myself if he dies over there. he just doesn't seem to understand that i need to know how he is doing. i understand that he needs to focus over there and not worry about what i'm doing back home, even though i would never ever ever cheat on him, but even just telling me what's going on and that he's okay would make my anxiety go down so much.