(((((((((((((((((loveregardless)))))))))))))))))) I think it can take a while sometimes to figure out what's going on. I was not diagnosed with DID until my 30s I think (have a hard time with time). Getting the right diagnosis can be very helpful in getting well, imo.

Also, having a T that understands and knows what goes on for me has helped me immensely. We are able to cover a lot of ground because she knows what's going on.

No matter what the end diagnosis will be, I think it will help you to know (even if it's scary sometimes). Perhaps instead of a psychiatrist, you might find a psychologist? Then you don't have to address the issue of meds right now but can get to the root of what's going on for you so you will know what is needed to treat it and heal.

Best of luck to you as you figure things out. Please keep us posted, we care.