BNLsMOM.... I've been thinking about you a lot since you started this thread. The whole first paragraph was sooooo very familiar. Those days triggered the heck out of me, and not having handled it at all well, I had no useful advice. But I did want you to know that you are not alone in that and that you are in my thoughts. Sooo glad you are feeling better today, and wishing you many more good days. Not an easy thing to deal with... keep us posted, ok?