I hope the writing exercise helps. Even if your mother never reads the letter, just finding a release for that anger inside of you & validating it will make you feel better.

I know that I wrote that I didn't think my T's did much in all of those years, but psychology has come a long way since then. It isn't just talking to a face now; it's about learning skills. You are sooo lucky to be financially capable of seeing a T, & your life is worth the investment. I'm sure that your hubby & son would agree b/c they want you to be happy. I wish you would reconsider.