I learned as a weeee little one that family is NOT where to find support. when hurting they will make sure you hurt even worse......

I never lean on any of them and just keep things on the surface and congenial. They have no idea what goes on with me and I prefer it that way so I don't have to endure further pain and upset. I am guarded and rightly so. I've distanced myself from them all-- especially the mother...... it's self-preservation for me.

I think for those that have even one person in their family that supports them when times are bad-- you are VERY lucky....... even though I'm not a religious sort, I'd refer to you as "blessed"

Sorry it wasn't good for you growing up goodgirl and that your mother is still rough on you.

best to you,

fins