(((((((((( powers )))))))))))

I think I understand where you are coming from. I did not suffer from an abuse such as yourself and many others here. But, there was abuse none the less.

I think what TheByzantine said is very true....forgiveness is a huge thing in letting go of the anger and pain, or at least a large part of it. Sometimes the forgiveness comes to those who have abused us, sometimes the forgiveness comes with ourselves as well. In my situation, when I began to forgive myself, I found it much easier down the road to forgive my abusers. It doesn't mean I forget....it doesn't mean that I would run up to them and hug them by any stretch of the imagination, but I just couldn't live with all that anger and hatred anymore...it was just consuming me and would have been the end of me for sure.

I guess to me, the forgiveness was a gift I gave to myself. It really didn't have a thing to do with my abusers, it was strictly about me...and dang it, it was about time!!!!!

Oh, and it begins on a small scale.....little things to be forgiven for....then worked up to the bigger things as I got more confident and able to forgive. It took time, but it was well worth every second of it. I have been able to move on.....to find the enjoyment in life that we all deserve and crave.


sabby