was this aimed at me?

i work full time, i'm a single parent, i do not get much time to log on, but ive tried to get to on thank people for sharing, i was touched when i saw your post offering to listen, wanting me to share, then as i moved down i see ive been judged even before ive started, ive never told anyone about what has happened to me, i dont know why this has upset me so much, i became a member a year ago, mainly for help for a different reason, but my abuse problem has always been there, but ive never wanted to face it, but its ended up effecting so much, when i first posted in this forum a couple of weeks ago, it was the first time i could bring myself to go into the abuse forum, i was scared at what i would find, & kept putting off posting, but i did it, i dont know what you think i am, i felt scared at sharing, frightened, that no one would understand, would judge me, i'm sorry if i have upset anyone, sharing isnt that easy, i didnt realise i should have done that by now, i just wanted to feel that i wasnt alone, that im not some freak that deserved to be beaten, i'm sorry