I do the same thing! I watch tv programs I care nothing about, read things that don't interest me, and obsessively circle back and forth from one site to another, which I think adds to the frustration and restlessness.

Do you have any interest in writing or art of some kind. I sometimes manage to redirect my attention to one of those "outlets" even if it's just to "scribble" or write a poem that ends up looking like,

the flat back sack

I am feeling better now
even though my honesty, predictably falls flat
not pounding sounds more interesting into your brain
but whack

Oh yeah, that's an original. =)

Missing meds of any kind will certainly make you feel "off", and missed psychiatric meds will make you feel a whole lot more than that sometimes.

I think those of us who think about suicide at times when we aren't suicidal, are just fantasizing about an escape from having to deal with whatever it is we're feeling at the moment.

If you're up for something to watch that might help shake you into a new state of mind, try watching Extreme Makeover Home Edition. You can stream episodes for free on ABC.com. I find that show to be just what I need sometimes. But then other times, a really mindless comedy, some stand up or a reality show does the trick.

The other day I spent hours looking up information on UFO's and cryptozoology online. That was interesting. =)