Hi tired,
Welcome to the forums. It sounds like your life has been really tough. I know what it si like to barely survive. I hope a job opportunity comes for your husband soon. These things put such a strain on life. It doesn't help that you are having medical problems too.

Babble away. This is the place for it. I am glad you were able to vent. Sometimes that can help. When I feel overwhelmed I try to look only at what I can do today and not look at the big picture. If I look to far ahead I get paralyzed and cant do anything.
I know it's small words of comfort because I really do know how it feels to be in your spot. I will send you my understanding and a hug.
Hang in there and know that it is ok to cry, even if it's all day.
Best wishes,
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell