Isn't it enough that I go into a depression so deep that I idealize about hurting mysef to take away the inner pain. But to have to deal with headaches, nausea, dizziness, etc. There's got to be a giving point somewhere.

And what's ironic is that I'm in physical pain, but still idealize about putting myslef into more.... what's up with that?

Does anyone else ever feel this way?

I have a pdoc appointment this week, hopefully she'll have some answers, maybe it's time for a med change.