i cut when i get panic attacks and i've been on meds that have been helping and i've been really close friends with my ex's cousin that he never sees anyway, to the point of talking about moving in together because she's leaving her husband

and tonight he told her she had to stop talking to me and she listened

and she was all i had.

ativan isn't enough and now i can't stop bleeding and the bathtub water was dark red.

i just don't understand what makes a man, ptsd or bpd or not, go from proposing to hating someone so much for no reason.