I really don't know what to say other than I am afraid for you. I pray that you have stopped bleeding. If not please, please get some help as soon as possible. I know that you are in a bad place right now - and I'm so sorry that your are hurting. Please keep posting so that I know that you are okay! If you have a Therapist or Psych doc please call them now on their emergency line. The next time you maynot be so lucky. Please veggy, let us know how you are doing! Love you!! {{{{veggy}}}}